Ap Tan

August 27, 2025

The most honest form of filmmaking is to make a film for yourself.

To be a filmmaker, you have to lead. you have to be psychotic in your desire to do something. People always like the easy route. You have to push hard to get something unusual, something different. BUT – always remember; you ‘re making a film, a movie, not a tragic.

Night Flower – This is the most expensive movie trailer I ever produced, directed in my life.. It’s not about the cost, but it’s the `intense experiences’ that I have to go through to make it happened.

Well, it’s another phase of my life which is not a page or two I can share with you here.. Because of producing & directing this trailer, I have drifted into a zone where logic has no part to play. With the nature of my kindness, I have supported, saved a few `night flowers’ from their miserable lives. I want to believe I was doing the right thing but as for today where it had leaded me to be, I no longer wish to believe nor even dare to guess was I doing a right thing to save ‘those’ who are not even cared to save themselves. That’s life.. after all.

I can only be proud of what my sincere intention wanting to change some human beings’ faith, but I no longer have any energy left to complete my mission. Not for now. It’s true that we can only design, create, build, plan and support our most sincere intention and wishes, but it really take some decent people to care to make our well intention a reality.

“It's not that you should never love something so much that it can control you. It's that you need to love something that much so that you can never be controlled. "

If ever I am granted a chance to meet ‘those’ I have saved and supported before, I would like to say these to them in person;

“My dear.. life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts, don’t complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. Don’t bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality. Wake up and live respectfully.”

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